Thursday, October 20, 2005

Epiphany

This morning it dawned on me that I am not living my life to the fullest extent that I could, and haven't been for a while. I don't know why I realized this today, but I did and I am grateful. If I were to die today, I would regret the way I have been living, because it has been wasteful.

I let myself get bogged down in trivial things. I let the fear of getting hurt decide things for me, and am letting procrastination rule my world, which keeps me from doing the things that I really enjoy. I need to spend less time worrying, and more time taking care of business so I can enjoy life and those that are important to me.

I am starting today (even though I am leaving town for a few days) to make some changes. I need to make more time for myself (and this doesn't mean procrastinate even more). I keep telling those in my life that are fighting these same issues this very advice but I realize that I have not been taking it myself enough. I am going to write more, sing more, do art more, exercise more, love more, and appreciate the small beautiful things that are out there around every corner.

I know this sounds really cheesy, and I apologize to those that I might be causing to gag, but I am serious about this. Life only comes around once, and I feel like I have been letting it float by without being very involved for a while now. That is going to stop. It's all too short to do that.

6 comments:

Chicken said...

You are not alone.

Mishka said...

That is good to know....perhaps we can both improve things.

Ian said...

If it works, let me know how to do it!

Mind Sprite said...

Me too!

Ha Ha said...

How fortunate that you take the time to think about those things and how wonderful that women today do not have the guilt trips about thinking of oneself. Busy, Busy is the world today, no time to stop and smell the roses, I will do that later when I am old. Wrong! The time to do it is today! Good thinking Mishka!

Mishka said...

Thanks everyone for the support...it is much nicer to not be worrisome all the time...and the motivation to get things done instead of putting them off is great.